Story #2491

When I came out I was just 11, and I had written a note and put it underneath my mother’s pillow before I went to school. When I arrived home after school, I didn’t speak to my mom and felt terrible and wished I never did write that note, and I slept in my room in fear of what would happen to me, how she would treat me. As I feared, she confronted me and went on a rant about how I would be ‘mutilating’ my body if I went through with this. I eventually had enough and caved in and told her I was just confused and to forget the note completely. I love my mom and I didn’t want to disappoint her or have her hate me. I am now 16 and I still am a trans boy through and through. My mother still believes I’m a cis girl and it hurts me so much that I’m still so terrified to tell her the truth; however, I have amazing friends who support me, and I hope in the future I can finally come out and be my true self. Despite everything my mom has said about my identity I still love her and hope she can love and accept me as her son. (Male FtM/16/Gay)