When I Came Out

When I came out to my cousin who is a big sister to me, I had been trying all weekend, but kept chickening out. The night before I left, right when we were headed to bed, I fumbled with my words and finally asked if she wanted to see a picture of the person I was dating. I slid the phone over to her, face down. She responded, “She’s pretty”…then went to bed.

When I came out for the first time, I told my brother’s girlfriend. She was so happy for me and really made me feel more comfortable with myself. Two years later, she is now my sister-in-law. She grabbed me at the wedding and gave me a hug saying she loved me and would always support me, no matter who and that I should be proud.

When I came out I was drunk and my mom just came home and I said, “MOM! I’M SUPER GAY!” She just laughed and said, “I know, honey, I know, but you’re still my daughter.”

When I came out to one of my closest friends in July, it took me more than five minutes to muster the courage to say out loud, for the first time in my life, those two scariest of words: “I’m gay”. Now I can say it, walking along a London street, or in a park, and smile 🙂

When I came out to my mom, I was beyond terrified, but I just said it. “Mom, I’m gay.” She was quiet for a moment, and said, “Okay.” I felt so much better.

When I came out to my best friend it took me forever, and I couldn’t bring myself to say anything out loud, I had to text her. But she was nothing but supportive, and now I’m out to pretty much everyone. 😀

When I came out to my best friend, he was very supportive and he actually came out to me too. I was really nervous when I told him; my entire body was shaking. He understood. 🙂

When I came out to my sister I was petrified, I won’t lie. I was scared for everything to turn downhill and for our relationship to end. I was terrified that the sister with whom I grew up, love and deeply care about would suddenly change and wouldn’t love me the same. I told her; she said, “I know, so… what’s your ‘big news’?” Let’s just say our relationship has flourished even more.

When I came out, which was on September 25, I decided to finally defeat my fears and tell 2 of my best friends. I was so nervous and needed a lot of time to let the words “I’m gay” get out of me. They were very supportive but the funny and surprising thing is that they already knew it and one of them also confessed he is bisexual. I feel much better now 🙂

When I came out a few hours ago, I did it by posting a status on Facebook. I’ve gotten over 60 likes so far and over 50 comments and none of them have been negative! It’s a fantastic feeling!