When I came out, I was excited to live my future as part of a community that I was so proud of. Now, three years later, somehow I’ve found myself back in the closet and I don’t know if I ever want to leave it. As friends come out around me, I can’t help feeling a sense of loss, as if I’m grieving a life that I never got to live. My bisexuality used to be so special to me, but now I feel out of touch with it and, to be honest, that really hurts.